WHY IS IT THAT WHEN MOST PEOPLE MESS UP SO BAD, INSTEAD OF ATTEMPTING TO CLEAN UP THE MESS THEY BECOME DISCOURAGED AND CONTINUE TO CAUSE AN EVEN BIGGER MESS. IT IS NEVER TO LATE TO CLIMB UP OUT OF THAT HOLE NO MATTER HOW DEEP IT HAS GOTTEN. FAITH, SURPRISINGLY, SEEMS TO BE SO SCARCE NOW ADAYS!!!
I BELIEVE FAITH IS THE KEY. FAITH IN YOURSELF. HOW CAN YOU DO OR ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING WITHOUT BELIEF IN YOUR ABILITIES TO BE ALL YOU CAN BE.
WE SOMETIMES MAKE THE SIMPLEST SITUATIONS SO HARD OUT OF FEAR. WHETHER IT BE FEAR OF FAILURE, LET DOWNS ETC......
I HAVE A FRIEND THAT IS SINGLE AND SHE LOVES MEN. EVERYONE KNOWS THIS ABOUT HER. SHE IS NOT A BAD PERSON BY FAR, BUT SHE DOES THINGS THAT WOULD EASILY MAKE HER LOOK THAT WAY. SHE IS SINGLE AND CAN DO AS SHE PLEASES AS FAR AS DATING IS CONCERNED YET SHE ACTS AS IF SHE DOESN'T KNOW THIS. WHEN SHE MEETS SOMEONE NEW THEY WILL NORMALLY ASK HER OFF THE BACK IF SHE IS SEEING SOMEONE. BECAUSE OF HER ATTRACTIVE PHYSICAL APPEARANCE MEN AUTOMATICALLY ASSUME SHE IS ALREADY PROMISED TO SOMEONE, I SHOULD KNOW THE SAME THING HAPPENS TO ME. LOL!
INSTEAD OF BEING HONEST RIGHT OFF SHE'LL LIE & SAY "NO, I'M NOT SEEING ANYONE", KNOWING GOOD AND WELL SHE IS. NOW WHY WOULD SHE DO THAT?
THIS IS SOMEONE SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW. SHE HAS NO OBLIGATIONS TO HIM NOR ARE THERE ANY FEELINGS INVOLVED AT THIS POINT. DOES SHE THINK THAT IF SHE IS HONEST ABOUT HER DATING STATUS SHE WILL SCARE THE GUY OFF? MAYBE SHE WILL OR MAYBE SHE WON'T, BUT LIKE I'VE ALWAYS TOLD HER, THAT IS NOT UP TO HER TO CHOOSE. IF THAT PERSON ASKED THE QUESTION THEN THAT MEANS THEY REALLY WANTED TO KNOW. THEY MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE A REASON FOR WANTING TO KNOW BUT AGAIN THEY HAVE A RIGHT TO KNOW WHAT THEY COULD BE GETTING INTO GOOD OR BAD. SHE DOESN'T REALIZE THAT SHE HAS ALREADY DOOMED THE RELATIONSHIP BEFORE IT HAS EVEN STARTED BECAUSE IT HAS BEGUN BASED ON A LIE!
I KNOW THAT THE TRUTH CAN SOMETIMES COME AS A SHOCKER IN SOME SITUATIONS BUT I THINK THAT IF A PERSON IS INTERESTED ENOUGH THEY WILL RESPECT THE FACT THAT YOU WERE HONEST UP FRONT.
I AM SINGLE AT THIS POINT IN TIME AND SOONER OR LATER I WILL FIND MYSELF ON THE DATING SCENE AGAIN. BECAUSE OF MISTAKES THAT I HAVE MADE IN PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS I THINK I HAVE A GOOD SHOT AT IT THIS TIME AROUND.
I HAVE LEARNED TO BE REAL AND HONEST ABOUT MY STATUS AT ALL TIMES NO MATTER HOW INTERESTED A PERSON MAY BE IN ME. IF I DECIDE TO GO AND HANG OUT WITH SOMEONE I WILL BE SURE TO LET THEM KNOW UP FRONT THAT THAT IS ALL IT IS,,,, HANGING OUT. IF I BEGIN TO FEEL FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE I WILL BE SURE & LET IT BE KNOWN RIGHT AWAY. I HAVE FOUND MYSELF IN HOLES BEFORE THAT I HAVE DUG ALL ON MY OWN AND EVENTHOUGH I CANNOT SAY THAT THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN I CAN DO MY BEST TRYING FOR IT NOT TO.
IT IS NOT ABOUT THE MISTAKES THAT WE MAKE BUT WHAT WE CHOOSE TO DO AFTER THEM.
FOR INSTANCE; I ACTUALLY ALLOWED MYSELF TO BE THE OTHER WOMAN IN A RELATIONSHIP NOT ONCE BUT TWICE IN MY LIFE, KNOWINGLY BUT NOT KNOWINGLY. ALL THE SIGNS WERE THERE AND SO WAS SHE. EACH TIME IT WAS WITH SOMEONE I LOVED DEARLY NOT JUST SOME HERE AND THERE RELATIONSHIP BUT WITH SOMEONE I COULD HAVE MARRIED. AFTER THE 1ST TIME SO MANY YEARS AGO BEFORE MY SON I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WOULD NEVER ALLOW THAT TO HAPPEN AGAIN BUT YET AND STILL IT DID. THOSE WORDS WERE EASIER SAID THAN DONE.
I MADE THE MISTAKE OF NOT LOVING MYSELF ENOUGH. I WASN'T FULLY AWARE OF MY WORTH AND I DIDN'T SHOW ENOUGH RESPECT FOR MYSELF THAT HAD ALREADY BEEN INSTILLED IN ME SO LONG AGO FROM CHILD-HOOD. EACH TIME I WAS TOLD BY THESE MEN THAT IF I LOVED THAT PERSON ENOUGH I SHOULD BE ABLE TO STICK AROUND THROUGH ANYTHING AND WAIT ON THEM. BUT I FEEL LIKE IF THEY LOVED ME ENOUGH THEN THEY WOULDN'T HAVE WANTED ME TOO.
MY FATHER USED TO PREACH TO ME THAT IF I ENDED UP WITH A MAN THAT FEELS THAT I ALONE AM NOT ENOUGH FOR HIM THEN I DID NOT NEED TO BE WITH THAT MAN AND IF THAT MAN ALONE WASN'T ENOUGH FOR ME THEN I NEED LOOK AT MYSELF. LOVE IS A POWERFUL CRAZY THING. IT CAN BLIND YOU OR OPEN YOUR EYES. A LARGE AMOUNT OF THE MISTAKES I HAVE MADE IN MY LIFETIME HAVE BEEN IN THE NAME OF LOVE.
AFTER BEING IN A SITUATION TO WHERE I HAD TO SHARE SOMEONE I LOVED WITH SOMEONE ELSE I TURNED INTO SOMEONE ELSE. HATEFUL AND MEAN. NOT ME!!! THAT WAS AND IS NOT ME!!!!!! 2ND MISTAKE,,,,,, ALLOWING MYSELF TO CHANGE UP MY WHOLE CHARACTER MAKEUP BY ALLOWING ANGER AND ENVY TO GET THE BEST OF ME.
THIS WAS A MISTAKE THAT I AM STILL PAYING FOR. THIS MISTAKE I AM AND WILL RECTIFY.
I HAVE MADE MISTAKES AND WILL CONTINUE TO MAKE THEM. I PROMISED MYSELF THAT WHEN THESE MISTAKES AND MISHAPS OCCUR THAT I WILL NOT ONLY CORRECT THEM BUT ALSO OWN UP TO THEM!!!!
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